I know that you can't teach an old dog new tricks. But can you remind an old dog of the same old tricks she once knew?
If a tree falls in the woods, and no one is around, does it still make a sound? If a stay at home mom goes back to work full time after a ten year hiatus, will her brain still work?
These are the pressing questions that have held me back from blogging lately. Yes, I've returned to the workforce, full time. Yikes. And yes, I assumed it would take me no time to adjust to a full time work week and that I'd have this new job mastered in the blink of an eye and that it would be totally fine if Mike had to go out of town for work. Can you guess what happened/what is happening?
Yep - on the verge of a breakdown or freakout.
But, I know it. So there's comfort in that. At least that's what I tell myself, and anyone who looks at my wild-eyed fear-filled face with worry.
I swear, I once knew how to work and how to have a career. But in my defense? I've not done it since children, or for that matter, while having had said children. So I'm not quite sure how to make all of this work. I have no doubt it can be done, but getting it done seems really REALLY difficult at times. I know many of you have done this forever. You know what? You all rock! And amaze me! And can you help me?
In a month? This will all be old hat, and it will seem as if I've been working forever. I'm sur eof it. Meanwhile, for the next month, I'm going to need to plan more breaks from reality like our bikeride to the wineries and a bed and breakfast this past Saturday. Because for that glorious day, I forgot all about my to-dos. And in forgetting those to-dos, nothing got to-done, and no one cared. No one. It all waited.
It all can wait. I'm one person, and I can only do so much. Meanwhile, it feels like I'm half-assing all of it - the job, parenthood, and being a wife. This will all click in no time, and I'll be able to run with the big dogs rather than sitting on the porch.
(Busted. I just tossed that one in there to see if it would even stick. It didn't. But I'm leaving it.)